Since I don’t have anyone to talk to anymore, I just need to vent to someone or something. I miss Coos Bay. I know it’s a boring town and 4 hours away, but people made time for me there. I was just going through pictures and I was out every night and my team became my family. I have so many great memories living in Coos Bay and now that I’m home no one gives a shit about me or wants to hang out or do stuff. I get that I moved away for almost 2 years but I’m back and I’ve been back. Part of me wishes I could just go back to the time when I was in Coos Bay. The time when I was going to class, practice, tanning with Levi, driving to Basendorf and back at midnight with the gang the night before a math test then going to Kozy Kitchen and getting a Kozy cake and whip cream going everywhere. Going to shore acres, having the freedom, riding bikes down to the pier and back, doing the insanity workout in the dance rooms, running around campus collecting/stealing pop cans and bottles because Kelly from Idaho had never taken cans back before, wakeboarding at the beach, going down to the docks and getting 5 feet away from the sea lions. The sleepovers, cooking, team dinners, climbing the cliffs at the beach and having to hurry and get back so we wouldn’t get stuck before the tide came in, eating in the caf together, and the late night taco bell runs.
Back here at home no one wants to do a thing with me. It’s frustrating. Where did everyone go? I mean I know people change but I didn’t just lose friends. I lost some of my best friends. Ones I thought would always be there. And now some I haven’t even talked to in a year. Part of me kinda just wants to move to a new city/town and start over. Obviously the people here moved on without me and don’t care enough to include me in their lives so why should I waste my time trying to be?